today a guy came into the coffeeshop and said, Happy mother's day
and I said, Thanks, happy mother's day to you, too
and he stalled and said, But you don't seem like-
-The mothering type?
and then I told him that I am actually the Mothering Type
but I didn't tell him how I try to take care of all of the kids
I let them cry, and I keep a dryface
I let them rain for hours on the phone
I let them rain in the rain
and I shed nothing
and I shed nothing
bc I am Trying to Take Care of Someone,
sometimes.
I didn't tell him that I will hold you with patience
even through a shakesobfest
which I too have, at strange intervals
like behind the espresso machine
or when I look at the shitty art in the gallery at work
or when I ride my bike, listening to purity ring
bc I am Trying to Understand how to Care for Someone,
sometimes
when it doesn't want me to
today a very old man came into the coffeeshop and handed me a pink carnation
and he said, May I give you this flower?
and I said, smelling it,
Of course you may, thank you
and I didn't do what I was urged to at the moment
I didn't fling the pink carnation at him, announcing,
The last person who gave me flowers
BROKE MY HEART!!
lol
I wish I would have
it would have ruined someone's mother's day, maybe
but who says he deserves me to ruin things
who says you need me to ruin things
who says I need you to ruin me?
No one would say that
that's retarded
we can't
ruin
each other, we're not big enough to
