Showing posts with label woods. Show all posts
Showing posts with label woods. Show all posts

05 August 2012

for me



I was drunk last night-

 this one’s for me. do you ever think about it?
do you ever think about it?
do you ever think about it?
Sometimes I think I know everything,
sometimes it’s later at night, during the time a moon normally shows,
especially when on nights before so strong a moon shone,
and sometimes, too, it’s distracting when everyone else can say it earlier than I, and
who cares? the smell is there, and I have the olfactory moments in me thick & true,
and by the by telling you that I am here in the woods, with a laptop
which somehow seems perfect
because I am no earth mother
I am a Typist
and the delete key, the letters lit up, are the tools that keep em going
when I could just sleepingbag out right now on a T on a lake, waves lapping
lapping lapping sloshing, all night long

Instead, I am here, soberest, knowing. You know, I know.
But sober enough to know that you don’t really know.
I see better with my eyes closed,
with my head sort of
with my heart an open hand. if that would near it, what I try to say
OH
and fail to say.

Sorry if you don’t, because I always will. & so glad you don’t, so I’ll never have to.

My dog has these
these
these
these words are so unimportant to her!

o nevermind, the world won’t end before I remember what I was going to say.

12 March 2010

It's we from the branches, inevitably


prettylittle 88 - 91

It’s we from the branches growing forth! I can go, I've resolved. You’re the best thing, you get me inspired to sleep. I really have nothing more to plot.

I love you so I work pleasant. I’m too happy to have anything to say. Climax I don’t want to live without, and we’re close for our bodies tend to be right now. Events denude you… But eye-contact and you still are really more pure & naturally. I took to deprive of time, with the afraid, remorseful, amazing something... We’re different now, and I know we’re speaking intensely, physically. I get to stare at myself, to strip at certain points things of which I’m sure; illness & depression uninspired in the mirror, all surface layers needed desperately. Nothingness after.

Avoidant the whole time, bare by erosion, with you and death and in need of pruning too, which is always fun. To strip you fully, showering, I can’t wait to look.

Land of forest, a deep breath and it relates. Keeping a mirror at my bones. As we pass by her eyes for a moment, I quote a pet, old and grimed: poking through every denuded woods, I can’t justify what I’ve done… I’m unafraid. Long since mossed over. I’m starving, you know. Depurative. I know well that I have a new grave and so it goes.

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O, how much I bathe! Caring, younger & younger. I'm killing the point, purifying me; I try not to be. Solemnly. I’m a purgative love, jealous but celebratory. In renunciation, inevitably. All the hope for me.