somewhere

I am a little beast in here, a beast for you 

babe.

who has fingered me? don't stop touching on me. don't use your words at me, leave your swoll fingers afar from. I'm grippable. take my city from me, push it out my holes, fill my brain with other-fluff, the stuffs of else. I already knew, read ahead in all the books of this. once I was at your house and we were fighting, I was in the bathroom and you put on fade into you by mazzy star and I started to weep. I thought it was an example I could grip, of you connecting to me. and you hadn't any idea I felt your playing this song to be a reaching out for me. I started to cry because it felt like we were in the same place for once in awhile. you were hearing & responding & sending it back out. but then you changed the song in the middle, and I looked at my tearface in the mirror and the illusion was spoiled. welcome back, I said to us. but always remember, to never understand should never be a surprise maker.

fruitlsss

such an incapable little beast! 

I just spend the day sitting here wondering, what are you doing in the midwest?

and you, what are you doing right now over there, thousands of miles away?

I just spend the day sitting here wondering, when you think of me, do you ever think about what it was like when we loved each other

or maybe you don't, I guess. I guess we all know I do

but, I won't even ever see you again ever

and I won't even meet you ever, you know

so quit pulling out your hair & get up & go