equanimity in allthings

two women came into the coffeeshop
one asked, which of the green teas is less "greeny"?
I asked her to repeat herself,
  I wasn't sure if I heard her right
  and I wanted her to repeat herself so I'd know she'd heard, too
she doesn't like green tea but wants the health benefits
  Nathan refers to the two women as the Brain Trust
  I think Nathan says it right, sometimes
like when he referred to you as a sad husk of humanity
  sounds like something you might say, no?
  I am not a patience today
  not a temperance
but I am learning.
  I am leaning out the window towards it.

bedtime

It's true, even though I say no, that I am hurrying around and it really doesn't look good. I always tell myself about patience, but I am so heavily off the edge that waiting for anything seems like a deathpush. I just took a shower and how unfortunate to bathe off the Payette from my hair & skin, and all are looking red & pale & curled & summery and also, I make all of these promises, and I have to keep them

to never tell them about you

to never tell you about me

to never talk more than I ought to

to never say a thing

& so unfortunate to be back, because there, I can remain resolutionless... but now I am naked, & under sheets, & with a fan blowing over me, and no one to joke with