before I went to the babyshower
Britta dragged me to sheepherder's breakfast, which is something I'd definitely have taken you to if you'd come
chorizo & eggs & pimiento sauce, and bottomless frozen sangria & churros
but I hadn't an appetite, I drank all of the frozen sangrias
and the sugar tangle of the churro couldn't quench anything
on the way to the babyshower I thought it would be best if I showed up pregnant & engaged
like my two cousins, respectively
and I'd take the party away from them
and that was funny to me
because I felt the cling of forever
at the notion
she says forever to the guy who said marry me
she says forever to the baby she's doing
and that is a word I have a strangle-to
but it never ever stops finding me for trying.
I guess you all fell in love with someone else,
it's what I'd have done if I were you
but I never want to be like that
I may be a planet
a gassy little planet
but I'm solid
even in orbit
and I'm a relier
and I'm rely able
for always I say always,
and forever is in your mouth
and you spit it at me
and it clings with suckers in me
and now I'm a danglefish
and I'm a tanglegirl
and I'm still an alwayswill
alwaysdoes
and I'm still a forevertry
foreverdo
and may be you see me banished
bashful
tender or miserly
but as they say, I am not a broken thing
though I have my broken things
we can't be altruistic we can't be selfish
we can take care
we can take care
&
we can take true care of us.
I wish I had health like yours,
but I'm more lightning
than you are cloud
