little hero,
I too want dog-running dreams
four paws bending
dainty twitch at the wrist
sidewinder against the wall
catching triscuits over a mountain jumping a grave
I bought bananas as revenge
I wake up with my mind over the range
burners low
or mountains separating forever. That's the biggest distance I've ever seen
further than space
is
stay in space
space is pretty pleasy
I'm sorry about my body
It's falling apart inside
strings to pull out of me,
whole parts, globs, gushes
pretty pleasy things going out from me now
it's a mess
and it's a broke trust
nothing going in
nothing going on
no saving, doubling
exponentialling
I'm sorry
but I can't get high as the sun
as stoned as the stars
wasted as states away
fucked-up as a time zone
blood is in me
like new blood everyday
new little blood wishes when I wake up
old little blood wishes
just wish question wish question wish question wish
like where's the wants to see you again
what's ours is ours
what's mine is mine
I used to like the inside of your head
but where has it gone?
is it okay if I change some things for you
is it okay if I change my smell, to us?
subtle to change my life with you
is it okay if I do some coke, would that bother you
is it okay if I say I love you
is it okay if I show you my brain
is it okay if I change my mind?
I'm sorry about the bananas,
that was impulsive & now they're ripe so I don't know what to do with them.
I wrap around this fur body in springmorning
very close to the dirt, face in
the roots
the gentleroots
gentleman earth
I am a bloodbath
an old babe,
with bloodcurtain as cape
my mouth a twist, a smile, a hellow-honey
my shana punim
my hot-air balloon
my beautiful dreamer!
watching you sleep is a shame & watching you wake is a slaughter
